Just Jamie

Can it truly be called abuse if you were into it at the time? My head doctor said it would be helpful if I wrote it all down. Day by day. Doubt I’ll be able to keep that up but I’ll try. 
Just pour it all out of me. Under a fake name of course. All the names will be fake. Can’t have my real friends and family knowing what an utter slut I am. Some know.

Some of them even help. But I can’t let mum know I’m doing this. She has a hatred of me going online as it is. She thinks I’ll meet another guy who will abuse me. I think even worse she thinks I’ll manage to find my dad. I don’t want to go into that in detail yet.

Doctor Doug says I put myself at too much risk as it is. My life, my body.